Thursday, September 28, 2006
i hereby proclaim thursdays slack eating days!
im sorry. im really really sorry. i didnt mean to say that and i didnt mean to say it in that way and im just really so sorry. im not sure if it really meant that much to you but it really pains me when you sound this hurt and especially by me and i really hate myself for that. damn and i dont know what to say to you or how to say it but im sorry. ohgod i dont know why i keep doing this im really sorry i really shouldnt, i hate myself so freaking much for saying that and im so sorry and damn why do i keep letting stress get the better of me its such a stupid reason and im sorry. i really am. ah and im just so worried and scared and i know blogging about this wont do any good please dont ask me what im talking about because it will probably sound stupid to you. ahgod i hate myself damn.blah. there are so many things i have to bring for lit pt! not that im complaining, others have to bring loads too. nevermind must bring extra bag tmr since my new bag's so small! let me list what i have to bring here okay dont mind me just for my reference!
-purple gown (super easy to change into, but ahh so hard to change out of! which is bad because theres assembly right after lit D:)
-two uniform berets
-two normal-wearing berets (yess im so smart i brought them to school already! but still must bring home sigh)
-black platforms
-earrings
-necklace
-bracelet
-lipgloss and whatever other makeup products charisse wants me to wear-.-
-hanky (if i can find one)
-bedsheet
hmm i guess if you look at it again its not much. but the bedsheet and gown and FOUR berets are like ah so bulky! but im quite lucky la. michele is lending me her veil and chloe is lending me her bun net! and erik lent me her white blouse. which i really need because the gown is so freaking revealing! quote michele 'that is one sexy gown.'
HAHAHA(x
http://youtube.com/watch?v=CbTMASKqNuA this is nearly as funny as kekyan or zhenyi's boyfriend killing us :D
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yay im allowed to bring my new black heels instead so i shall wear those! lighter(:
hmm. should i wear gloves? blaah.
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i want to slap myself and cry.