i am the secret that you keep; MISS SCARLET.

Thursday, August 31, 2006

my cherie amour, pretty little one that i adore

youre the only girl my heart beats for

how i wish that you were mine

yes i have stopped bemoaning joakim's loss.

sigh my SIX BUCKS!D:

how come no one told me earlier huh!

okay actually i'd prefer jasmine winning to hady.

no offence to hady or ~~most~~ hady fans okay.

i think hady's really good and everything and will probably win.

but :D after what ive heard, who knows!

she gotta bill and a face like a supermodel

and her body built just like a coke bottle

but none can compare cause i cant keep my eyes off that girl

the song lyrics are random and have nothing to do with what im about to talk about next okay.

sigh. im worried about next year.

so far ive just been taking things as they come.

with a 'who cares its all gonna work out in the end' attitude.

but if it really happens, ><

WHAT FREAKING HAPPENED TO CHINAA.

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

DID YOU KNOW ITS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL TODAY?

i seriously didnt know okay! until erik told me. like omg.

i have this funny illusion that im still in june or something.

and the fact that i keep writing 07 instead of 06 for the dates on worksheets and notes ISNT HELPING.

oh and im very screwed for math pt i got TOBLERONE and freaking screwed up everything. i swear la, if i get kicked out of rgs for failing math i'll kill myself.

.

its so scary how you think you kinda roughly know some people and then you find out stuff about them thats like omg so unimaginable.

i mean, ~~third base?~~ HELLO? omg.

i really cant imagine it okay!

its totally changed my view of her.

.

anyway i hope theyre doing well now.

but firstly, it would have been much worse with me around.

secondly, i dont want to have to see that ugly bitch

thirdly, aiyah very sian la lazy to bring

fourthly, I NEED MY HOURS.

.

ahh why are my holidays so packed i need to mug for eoys!-.-

monday; civildefence course
tuesday; movie
wednesday;
thursday;lit pt meeting, sl outdoor games with the childcare centre
friday; lit movie screenings, charisse's birthday party

hmm at least im squeezing stuff on the same day(: if not i could have my entire holidays filled up, omg. I NEED TO MUG.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

you make me feel out of my element-
like im walking on broken glass
like my worlds spinning in slow motion
and youre moving too fast

hell no.

im sorry, i know you two mean well and everything okay. but yeah :X please ya dont. i dont want to see her-.-

yaah.

on a totally different issue-

i dont see why i should do this at all. if you dont even seem to want to why should i? i said i wouldnt do it, and i dont want to either. the only reason im trying is because i want it to last? not to be wasted and all that shit. but i really dont know why im even wanting this. why should i freaking bother? i dont have to okay. but i really believed you all wanted it to last-.- so why am i the only one who seems to want it? okay, yeah. fine. move on, i get it.

i will.

okay yes and i cant stand you UGHH. (this is another seperate issue.)

why am i pissed off at so many people?-.- its no wonder im so stony nowadays.

dont try to interpret anything there okay most probably you'll interpret it wrongly and thats going to cause a whole lot more trouble so yeah dont.

close your eyes and count to ten
ready or not, im gonna find you again
and again and again and again

kailin has very kindly gotten this song stuck in my head-.-

OHWELL. anyway.

cle was amusing.

'famous pop star dumps rich businessman for lousy history teacher' HAHA:D

sigh lazy to elaborate. you can ask me if you want(: for those people who went to support bball yeah.

everyone seems to be talking about relationships these days. breakups, steadys, rebounds- you name it. but i dont want to comment because blogs are public domain and for all i know people i talk about could read this.

i have tons of work to do-.- math pt rahhh. and lit fa.

oh and my links are finally up. theyre just um the blog names i remember la, and yeah those i read. okay sorry if i didnt link anyone. haha chloe and mish not supposed to link right? so yeah(:

Monday, August 28, 2006

okay first before i start on anything else,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANKAILIN!:D

hoho after exactly one month of being younger than me you are finally fourteen!(: whoo :D LOVE YOUR HAIR OKAY.

eh cool, the don&drew birthday song is currently playing on 987.

okay yaah. anyway!

i love this song okay! ♥

nevermind i should stop blogging songs right :X heh.

LIME MAGAZINE. theres this very cute picture of joakim inside!:D chloe and kailin were reading when we were having group discussions in geog, but their group finished early. and my group was still doing la.

then um i dont know how or why, but mrs mohd saw it i think then someone told her i'd voted for joakim and then she suddenly screamed out 'JOYCE! ARE YOU TONE DEAF?'

and i was like 'huh? what?' because i had no idea what was happening-.-

then she exclaimed 'HOW COULD YOU VOTE FOR THAT MONKEY!'

and i realised what she was talking about, lol.

and then after that she continued talking about joakim and how he should be out.

:P

okay YEAH i know joakim cant sing, im not deaf okay! but he has a cute voice, and yeah hes very cute(x hes like the only good looking guy in singapore idol.

jonathan is super ugly? hady is old.

taufik was just okay-looking, but i supported him because he was still way better than sylvester sim at least.

anyway its my prerogative to vote for who i want :P and if what i want is to sabotage singapore audiences to listen to joakim gomez's singing, too bad(:

wont it just be so amusing if joakim got signed on and they'd have to release his cd?

hahaha okay yeah probably some people would buy it, but DONT YOU AGREE it'd be so amusing!

and the media backlash is going to be so so funny:D

its already so much, critiscising joakim and telling people not to vote for him.

and hoho talk about REVERSE PSYCHOLOGY la.

okay fine i admit i first voted for him because hes cute-.- sorry lah i have hormones too okay.

but i get amused when people critiscise him, though. haha no charisse, not hurt. amused(:

YES i have found someone to rant to!:D in the form of letters, though, but NEVERMIND the positive side is that since its through letters i dont have to know when people arent interested in what im saying(:

Saturday, August 26, 2006

ughh. this is so screwed i need someone to talk to. some professional counsellor, or a psychologist. who doesnt know anything about all this and wont judge me when i confide.

we won fac!(:

Friday, August 25, 2006

then he said, heres a riddle for you
find the answer;
theres a reason for the world-
you and i

i like this song.

damn this person just made me feel bad-.-

anyway, i dont think i can go tmr.

they're right.

i dont mean to sound ego or whatever, but i'll sure kena okay.

what with so many people i know going.

how to sneak in la-.-

and what if those bitches report me, hoho. im sure they'd love to.

grr.

SIGH. nevermind lah dont go dont go lor-.-

Thursday, August 24, 2006

yes yes YES YES JOAKIM IS SAFE!:D

i was SO scared he'd be out okay! haha he was making the super cute gesture to smile to his fans omg. and mouthing 'smile! i'll be okay' (:

whooo joakim!

oh and yes i ROCK i almost finished my english personal exposition research okay!:D now all i need is statistics! which is so hard la-.- they dont have any on google, pfft! the question is 'why do people fall in love' some more so awkward lor!

we got english pt marks back today haha i've nearly forgotten what it feels like to get your marks back and feel happy about it(: but then again, these marks are from term2-.- before my grades really started slipping. and for the first time im happy that nsl marks so slowly okay!:D

okay um yeah i shall stop talking about grades okay!(:

singapore idol!

I SUPPORT JOAKIM(: i voted for him 10 times last night whoo:D hes like super super cute! hoho and shuai:D yay.

i dont care if he cant sing lahh hes so cute(:

a singapore idol ought to have LOOKS! um, singing can slowly pei2 yang3(:

haha last singapore idol when i supported taufik i didnt vote cause i knew taufik would win! and he did HAHAHA.

but this time people keep critiscising joakim, raahh.

and the media keeps trying to suay the votes la!

and okay, i admit it. joakim doesnt exactly sing very well. his voice lacks power! and needs loads of tuning-.-

but his voice quite cute leh!(: especially when singing that chinese song.

joakim should at least be runner-up, if not IDOL YAY(: joakim joakim joakim! SO CUTE. :D

oh haha this is weird im eating all the time in class so during lunch im not hungry and dont eat.

i hope joakim doesnt get eliminated tonight! haha but i dont think he will la he has so much support!(: okay BYEBYE.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

damn i hate my grades.

theyre seriously slipping this term.

i mean, ive never failed anything before except chinese, of course.

and last year i didnt get below a 3.6 for anything. of course except chinese again.

but last semester i got a 2.8 for math wahlao-.-

and i failed chem this term. FAILED. failed.

what kind of shit is that-.-

and my geog, omg.

i cant believe i did this freaking badly okay.

borderline pass?
i wanted to cry.
geog is supposed to be my second-best subject.

there goes my 4.0

im expecting to have failed math, too.

even though we havent gotten the papers back.

i know i screwed it up-.-

.

if i dont do well for history tomorrow im screwed okay.

and i will seriously break down if i dont get my 4.0 for history.
i think i know the reason why your studies are slipping like that.
joyce you idiot.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

hoong chloe kailin and i are going to watch lovewrecked whoo:D

so now all i need is someone to watch THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA with me haha(:

and pippy and i may be watching click! yay(:

in the words of hardgay, OKAY!

:D

okay sorry ive been watching too much-.- ive been watching all afternoon hahaha.

i saw two people evangelising on the mrt when i was with pippy. it kind of bugs me la-.- like um no offence to christians in general or anything okay. but its just weird! these two women were going around approaching random poeple and talking to them alot and everything on the train. and once they were done convincing one person they moved on to another.

im quite glad they didnt approach us haha:D maybe coz we're schoolgirls, or maybe cause i was giving them weird looks :X heh. one of the women kept catching my gaze, though >< blah.

and i think it was weird cause one guy they approached was standing directly behind me and pippy, so um we could hear everything they were saying right. then the guy was saying 'er but we're protestant' and the woman rebutted 'it doesnt matter! (something something) must believe in jesus christ (something something something) if you love jesus, whats stopping you?'

erh-.- and whats more, they were new to singapore and before that had asked me and pippy which way to changi airport. and they had bags of LUGGAGE. so they could be just tourists, stopping by.

and right after they stopped talking to the guy they went and approached another woman. in plain view of the guy.

like see la what are people gonna think of singaporeans at this rate! DESPO people!-.- shouldnt there be something to stop people from evangelising in public areas?

haha maybe if i become a lawyer i shall go find out and SUE these people yay!:D

hoho okay i must get back to what im doing(: BYEBYE.

hey, hey baby!

i wanna know, if you'll be my girl -

Monday, August 21, 2006

ohoh(: hardgay is very cute hahaha.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-aiHJgvlTu4

go watch! um im not going to post the video because its heh kind of sick but its very funny and lame la :D hardogei hoo!(:

oh and i watched the whole of shes the man on youtube this afternoon(: which ive wanted to do for a veryvery long time but like never had the time. anyway its very nice! haha i love amanda bynes(: i want to watch LOVEWRECKED next:D

and i just dedicated a song to my new specs HAHA can you believe me!:D

okay enough of ~~lame stuff~~(:

english personal exposition essay!

sigh its so WEIRD-.- and malu!
maybe i'll just ask my brother.
hoho professional!

Saturday, August 19, 2006

ahh! i just realised that with my new blogskin all my whitewords are exposed. :X sigh. and im too lazy to change all the whitewords to blackwords so NEVERMIND. dontcare lah!

oh and i disagree with the words above my name-.-

football socks look like stockings!

i love my new platforms(:
i love my new specs(:
i love my new trackshoes(:
i love shopping with my daddy, yay!(:

my new specs look alotalot like those i wore before changing to these silver ones. haha but i still love them(:

i've changed my blogskin. by request of chloe, kailin, and my sister's squeals of 'DADDY JOYCE IS READING PORN!'

i dont know why im doing quizzes. damn i still have so many things to do but i just dont feel like it.
&i'll never get anything done, because when youre not here i dont want to work. and when youre here i cant work. damn damn damn.

1. Full name: ong pei wen joyce
2. Name backwards: ecyoj new iep gno. -.-
3. Were you named after someone? : uh. no.
4. Meaning of name: i dont know-.- joyful?-.-
5. Nickname: joyceong? nothing much la you cant play with a onesyllable name alot!
6. Screen name: + joyce (its a year msn nick.)
7. D.O.B: 28 july 1992
8. Place of birth: singapore
9. Nationality: singaporean
10. Current location: for the third time, singapore-.-
11. Star sign: leo!(:
12. Religion: buddhist.
13. Height: 167(:
14. Weight: :X my lips are sealed.
15. Shoe size: 7
16. Hair color: black, white, brown (i used to have gold but its gone now!)
17. Eye color: black
18. Who do you look like: the person in the mirror
19. Innie or outtie: out
20. Lefty or righty: right
21. Gay, straight, bi or others: straight
22. Best friends: kailin chloe pheb does he count?
23. Best friends you trust most:
24. Favourite pals: i'll just die if i named-.-
25. Best friend of opposite sex: oh, so here it is.
26. Best buddies: isnt it the same as friends/pals/WHAAAATEVER.
27. Boyfriend or girlfriend: dno i dont think so.
28. Crush: also dno but yeah more like
29. Parents: both.
30. Worst Enemy: SIGHHHH.
31. Favourite online guy:
32. Favourite online girl:
33. Craziest friend: last year's pheb and gayle.
34. Advice friend: kailin
35. Loudest friend: dno.
36. Person you cry with: i havent cried in a very, very long time. except that, but that was a stupid reason-.-
37. Any sisters: yeah one.
38. Any brothers: yeah one.
39. Any pets: nope. i'd never be able to take the commitment.
40. Any disease: no-.-
41. Pager: eee no.
42. Personal phone line: used to, before my sis insisted on sharing it
43. Cell phone: yeah, obviously-.-
44. Lava Lamp: i used to have one but it broke. so pretty(:
45. Pool or hot tub: POOOOOL.
46. A car: only 14, m'dear. but i prefer taxis leh.
47. Your personality: i dont know i want to be analysed, damn.
48.Driving: reckless and WHOOOO(: but so far its only been tested on go-karts and my dad's already scared so hahah wait and see in 4 years time:D
49. Room: i barely spend any time in it because the stupid plasma tv is so space-invading.
50. Whats missing: space.
51. School: rgs. i like it what.
52. Bed: i havent flopped down on it in ages. damn.
53. Relationship with parents: fluctuates.
54. Believe in yourself: not really, im just like- can what-.-
55. Believe in love at first sight: no
56. Good listener: yeah but not a good advice-giver
57. Get along well with parents: depends.
58. Save e-mail convos: yes. i save everything.
59. Pray: havent done that in a long long time.
60. Believe in reincarnation: not really.
61. Make fun of people: yeah i bitch alot.
62. Like to talk on the phone: used to talk like shit-.- but now alot less.
63. Want to get married: yes
64. Like to drive: go-karts go-karts(:
65. Motion Sickness: no.
66. Eat stem of broccoli: eee no.
67. Eat chicken with fork: yeah. you mean we're not supposed to?
68. Dream in color: yeah, but all with white backgrounds.
69. Type with your fingers on home role: whats home role?
70. Sleep with stuff toys: they surround me but i dont hug them.
71. Next to you: my dad.
72. On the walls of your room: loads of posters.
73. On your mousepad: i dont like mousepads.
74. Dream car: something black with hotpink streaks.
75. Dream date: sigh dont get me started.
76. Dream honeymoon spot: VENICE, omg.
77. Dream husband or wife: see how.
78. Bedtime: most of the time, 10.30
79. Under your bed: dust?-.-
80. Single most important question: for?
81. Bad time of the day: late morning.
82. Your worst fear: embarrassment?
83. The weather is: too dark cant tell
84. Time: 10.47pm
85. Date: 190806
86. Best trick did on someone: i think last year april fools? ambulance prank!:D
87. Theme song: does the fanclub song count?
88. Hardest thing about growing up: leaving stuff behind.
89. Funniest experience: cant really pinpoint FUNNIEST.
90. Scariest experience: night trail night trail.
91. Silliest thing you have ever said: lots of stuff.
92. Most desperate and funniest thing i have done to get the opposite sex: urghhhh.
93. Scariest thing while you are with your friends: um. the cheekopek in katong!
94. Worst feeling: not knowing.
95. Best feeling in the world: (:

Name 3 schools you went
white sands
taonan
rgs

Name 3 things in your purse/wallet
keys
cards
photo

Name 3 things you always do when you are stressed up
scream(:
curse
refuse to do anything more.

Name 3 fav songs right now
the way you look at me- christian bautista
i got you- mcfly
im not missing you- stacie orrico

Name 3 favourite persons in life
all my clique people(:
(excluding her, of course.)

Name 3 places you go on a daily basis
orchard (except sundays)
home
loyang point?

Name 3 things you like to do
write
talk stuff out
read blogs

Name 3 person of the opposite sex that you hold hands before
no one that really counts.

Name three favourite fruits
peach
lychee
watermelon

Name 3 career choices
lawyer
pyschologist? (but cannot make it la-.-)
sociologist?

Name 3 goals in 2006 (i shall set for 2007 because 2006's nearly over.)
get back passion for rgsrcy :X
remember ALL the juniors' names.
not move blog!

Name 3 plans for tomorrow
school
NOT shop.
NOT go out.(i went out four out of five days last week okay!D:)

Name 3 things that scare you
insects :X
bitching
being wrong about -

Name 3 of your essential needs
money (i feel insecure without at least 30bucks in my wallet, dont ask me why)
handphone
sweettalk:D

Name three things you are wearing right now
shirt
taonan shorts
specs?-.-

Name 3 unforgettable events still in your mind
filling waterbombs illegally!:D haha.
betting on whether the toilet costed money xD LOITERINGGG.
those two and their questions hahahah(x

Name 3 things essential in relationship
commitment
willingness to give each other space
♥, duh.

Name 3 things you want to do before you leave this world
crime(:
something wildddd.
borrow tons of money to SPEND SPEND SPEND. and then tell the people i borrowed money from to buy insurance for me to get their money back:D win-win situation, baby.

Name 3 wines
dont drink!

Random questions
lied to the person you love most?
yeah.

bluff a person you dont like/love him when you do?
yeah. who hasnt?-.-

YES or NO questions
Been trap in lift?
nope(:

Violated the law?
hahaha yeah:D

Been in jail?
nope

Trapped in a room with only a opposite sex around?
been, but not trapped.

Loved someone with your whole heart?
im not sure.

Name 3 people to do this quiz
chloe kailin anna i guess. [edit]and PHOEBE(:

i saw this on anna's blog!

and its not that i dont want to teach you sfa. i mean, sure. help a friend, blah blah blah-.- but firstly, if i wanted to tutor people I COULD GO GET PAID FOR IT. secondly, stop fawning over me. just because im in rgs doesnt mean that i know everything! STOPSTOPSTOP-.-

so i shall do it(:

100 facts about joyce!

i rock. like obviously(:
my chinese name is very easy to write!
i have decided that i like small blogger fonts.
i am wearing redcross tee and cullotes now because im lazy to change out
i went for all three school GOHs this year!
but i didnt go for pop goh :X
i nearly filled up the ENTIRE tin for flag day just now
even when around 10 people donated NOTES:D
i like pink!
i dislike pastel colours
except for lightpink. PINK IS AN EXCEPTION(:
but a TOTALLY pastel pink thing would be gross-.-
but mixed with other shades of pink, PRETTY!(:
i want to get red glasses!
kailin and i were almost caught by deborahtan
but we were saved by my SILVER glasses!:D
when i tag blogs, i dont normally read them
when i read blogs, i dont normally tag them
i am NOT weird.
no one has ever called me by my chinese name before except chinese teachers
and yah of course old m'sian relatives that dont speak english
and i like that!
i am in ndp(:
and i love it.
I AM VERY AMUSED THAT SOMEONE CRUSHES STELLA:D
i asked nicole to lend stella her schoolshoes today
i repeat, i am NOT weird.
i spent three hours yesterday analysing people i know
it was FUN(:
i hate thatbitch
i think shes veryvery gross-.-
i dont even want to start to talk about her.
i have a pretty ndp badge and YOU DONT HAHAHA.
i think the rsaf's uniform is sexayye(:
ilu ilu ilu!
i did not say that.
serious. i didnt.
i play maple
and NO i am not ashamed of it!
i am a hypocrite(:
my points are not necessarily linked to one another
im doing other stuff while doing this
i am moodswingy.
i am smsing chloe!
i dislike my msn nick.
i reallyreally want to change my msn nick
but i'll get scolded for it by breaking the 'unity'-.-
i think its a lousy idea
i dont know why im doing this
i have a dead tagboard :X
i've eaten laksa three times this week(:
i went with kailin and yutian to swoon over the entire ikea!:D
we wanted to get to specialty shop which was RIGHT at the other end of the order of arrows
and we were RIGHT at the start of the arrows
so we walked through the whole ikea!(:
and when we got to the specialtyshop- it wasnt that good-.-
i like the font georgia!
i think maybe i shall change my msn font to it(:
but ahh cannot-.- i only like it when its small.
im TRYING to give good advice over msn
i think i give lousy advice
when i give advice i tend to digress :X
my advice normally comes from what i hear other people say
i believe what journalists and columnists in newspapers/magazines say.
i stereotype.
I AM IRRITATEDDDD.
go away go away go away I DONT KNOW!
okay im sorry.
this guy is seriously irritating me.
-says slowly- the only reason i am replying you is because i do not wish to discriminate against you.
it is because i have been daoing you for so long and i know that it is partially because of my prejudice against ~~neighbourhoodschools~~
and HOW COME you dont get such OBVIOUS hints!D:
okay, fine, maybe its my fault.
i hereby conclude that i REALLY, REALLY suck at sounding pissed off and irritated.
because i have been giving you this kind of attitude for damn long-.-
and HAVENT YOU NOTICED? how i sound completely different in group convos and when i drag myself to reply to you?
i wasted 16 lines on being frustrated with -
let me start a new topic; i like stars
i need a blog to read!
does bitching make you a bitch?
im sorry, that wasnt a fact about me. and neither is this. i WILL stop digressing. starting now.
i hate bitches.
actually, im fine with it. but i hate people who bitch about me ON THEIR BLOGS.
because i read blogs.
ohh i think that final 'ASK SOMEONE ELSE LAH.' actually worked! he stopped(:
and now i feel bad-.- damn you, joyce.
this is point number 87 and i am 167cm tall(:
but the stupid ruler measured me as 165.5 during h&w for pe.
and then when i went to measure it again at the same ruler, I WAS 167-.-
i am disliked by rulers measuring height.
i think tay pin pin ought to watch out(:
i love taxis! lovelovelove taxis!
i had at least 10 people who donated $2notes into my tin for flagday(:
and like, 6 were taxi drivers who VOLUNTEERED the money. they like called me over! and donated:D
if you give me something that is pink, no matter what it is, i swear i will use it(:
if you dont tell me beforehand what youre going to give me, i promise i will love it threetimes as much.
i like rgs.but i wish rgsrcy wasnt so different.
i never thought i'd have the patience to finish this entire thing.
i like writing stuff(:
I WANT TO WRITE ANOTHER 100. damn.

tay pin pin,

YOU WATCH OUT.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

damn, i cant believe how act-cute i sounded in sec one.

okay. im very, very VERY glad diary-x shut down.

i cant believe how i sounded last year!D: damn.

the world would be a lonely place
without the one that puts a smile on your face
so hold me til the sun burns out
i wont be lonely when im done

cause ive got you to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough and an hour seems much longer

i never doubted you at all
the stars collide, will you stand by and watch them fall? (by and watch them fall)
so hold me til the sky is clear
and whisper words of love right into my ear

cause ive got you to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
yeah when i got you
oh to make me feel better
when the nights are long they'll be easier together

looking in your eyes
hoping they wont cry
and even if you do
i'll be in bed so close to you
hold you through the night
and you'll be unaware
but if you need me i'll be there

yeah i got you
oh to make me feel stronger
when the days are rough and an hour seems much longer
yeah when i got you to make me feel better
when the nights are long they'll be easier together

i love mcfly!

i think its now become like ROUTINE for me? hahaha.
novelty's gone, but the coolness of it all is still there:D
i missed you!(:
and im surprised you still remember, omg.
after so long!
after all the changes;
you can still remember me!
i thought i was just another one of them
even though i gotta admit,
i forgot you ~~abit~~ :X
its been so long since ive heard your voice!
and ive been so used to the nonstoprush of it all.

chatting with you again feels good!(:

Monday, August 14, 2006

&cause baby this is just the way i ALWAYS wanna feel <3

ahh damn i still have that song stuck in my head!

anyway(: i went shopping with pheb today! i think i really needed that retail therapy yeah(:

if you want it, buy it.

whooo!:D

and RAAAAAAAHH.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

damn. i actually WANT to do homework now.

I NEED HOMEWORK. I NEED NOTES. I NEED SOMETHING TO MUG!D:
i need something to stop my mind from wandering off the edge
i havent thought about schoolwork this entire week. and im starting to worry.

i dont have homework to do! i dont have notes to mug! i dont have things to do for chinese pt!

and im not interested in teaching people how to pass sfa. get the hint and back off already lah-.- buggerrr.

the only reason i go online is to wait, okay?

im in love with this song! omg omg omg ITS PLAYING NOW<3 i love it!

christian bautista- the way you look at me
No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You made me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

If I could freeze some moment in my mind
The second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock, make time stand still
'Cause baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You made me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

I dont know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens everytime

'Cause there's somethin' in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You made me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

The way you look at me..

BEING WITHOUT A CARE ROCKS(:

Thursday, August 10, 2006

everyones in this something's over mood!
and i dont know what to be in-.-
all my ndp friends are in this post ndp mood
all my yearmates/juniors/ma'ams are in this post pop mood (which i missed because of ndp ><) kailin and stella are in a post ord mood and im like- i dont know!
ive got this really detached feeling around me.

but what i know is
im going to miss ndp loads<3

but i just havent started yet.

i know, i know.
im slow.

just look at everyone else
theyre already missing ndp.
msn nicks, tags, blog entries

it sounds like its all over-

but how come i dont feel it?

and pop, omg.
i think im the only one who missed both the parade and the chalet?
~~i cant help thinking maybe im not cut out for redcross.~~
but then, rcyndp's part of redcross too.
and as chloe said, without rgsrcy i wouldnt even have rcyndp.

but look-
i dont mug for things, im not zai at fd, fa, rck, evac, or all that.

and ive kinda lost my passion for rgsrcy.

my passion's gone to ndp.

but i didnt cry for ndp-
~~does that mean i dont have passion for it too?~~

no.
i know my heart's in ndp.

its just that i dontknow ah-
no tears.

~~damn.~~
this is very, very surreal

IT DOESNT FEEL RIGHT-.-

the last three months have just whooshed by.

yesterday just didnt feel like the day after the ACTUAL ndp.
it felt like, a normal day.
after a normal ndp training

it just hasnt hit me yet that its over.
that my saturdays are ~~free~~.
that after this saturday, im probably never going to see them again.

i love you guys, okay?

i gave limpon, junru, and zengan foam hearts on wednesday(:

i didnt dare to give the other guys coz its kind of girlish, heh.

but yeah.

zengan was asking in the cab after ndp

'what are you guys gonna miss most about ndp?'

i didnt answer.

but i know.

its the people

our clique(: the instructors(: the spirit(:

&even though theyre probably never going to read this-

limpon- my darling les partner!:D haha always holding hands and going around! and all those bitching sessions(: it feels so good to have someone bitch with you. ilu limpon! ♥

junru- SWEETIEE(: haha the cute demure one! ilu too! but youre too nice, girl. i applaud you for putting up with thatbitch!(: ♥

zengan- the only one farfar away from us! but with us in SPIRIT yeah(: you ah! read so much into things. gullible!(: ♥

jiejun- lame 到无要可救!(: always talking to me online:D and doing stuff with me for ky! WELOVEJAYJAY FANCLUB(: ♥

and im sorry! must go do chinese pt! so i'll just list.
minxuan
junhong
jinping
kelly
pearlyn
sarahtan
sarahcheong
conhwa
faidhilah
honghui
ameera

love you guys!♥

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

i havent quite gotten it into my head that ndp's ended.

its the 10th of august.

it just doesnt feel right.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

i was meaning to blog this REALLY long ago! like when i still had the http://-dropaheart.blogspot.com blog, but well i just kept being out of a blogging mood-.-

and when i finally feel like blogging now, i realise i didnt bring my romeo and juliet act two home!

so i was like ohwell.

and then, i went blogsurfing and HEY.

i saw it on erik's blog!

so here it is(:

what does love mean?
love is when a single word from a person can make you grin.
love is when u tell a guy his shirt is nice and he wears it everyday even when his friends laugh at him.
love is when a person says your name differently and you know your name is safe in their mouths.
love is when you give somebody your french fries and you dont ask for any back.
love is what makes you smile when you are tired.
love is when you can walk around the same place with someone again and again without feeling bored.

yayy isnt it pretty! its by this group of researchers who asked kids from like 4-7 years of age what love was. and omg its so beautiful!(:

this is one of the main reasons why im taking lit next year.

NDAY(:

210 performance! we screwed up-.- but nevermind! SPIRIT'S STILL THERE LA. its aaallll our effort we put in that counts.

and i spent the rest of the day lying on the floor in the AIRCON<3 hall with fiona and yingling! yay aircon!

TAONAN(:

somehow its not a nostalgic place anymore. as in, its become just a place to hang.

yeah i know thats a very weird way to describe your primary school! but, really. taonan's become more of a place to just hang around waiting for people. and i dont even feel like visiting teachers anymore-.- i just like going back(:

EASTCOASTPARK(:

hahaha ndp gathering! its gonna be fun. yay.

well it BETTER BE after all this effort we're putting in okay!

i took 36 home, like i used to do in p4! and yeah well since its been FOUR years since ive taken that route i was hoping it hadnt changed.

and because when i take 36 home, i take it to changi airport and transfer to 53 yeah. so when the bus reached changi airport it stopped and a policeman came on o.0 and i was like HUH whys there a policeman! and then i was kinda scared-.- like i thought maybe there was a terrorist on the bus or that they suspected a bomb here! then the policeman just checked the passengers, then got off. and i realised it was just a routine safety check la.

and yeah its just weird! then at another point the bus stopped again and another policeman got on to check everyone but this time i wasnt so freaked yeah.

I LIKE MY BLOGNAMEE(: i like it so much!

but damn i hate blogging.

as in, i dont hate blogging itself. i just hate the aftereffects of blogging!

like yknow when someone asks you

person: why are you doing (insert thing/topic/whatever here)
me: orh coz (insert reason here). eh wait how'd you know about that?
person: i read it on your blog

DISCLAIMER: this is a totally hypothetical situation! it has not just happened or something yeah. but err it has happened before. but, IM NOT REFERRING TO ANYONE. please dont misunderstandd!

yeah anyway its just irritating!-.- the blog me isnt really the real me anyway what. yeah.
and besides you get gross stuff happening to you on blogs. raaahhh.

Monday, August 07, 2006

yay look at that wonderfully fakehappy first post. i mean, after all, first posts should be nice and happy.

i havent decided whether this should be a secret blog or a public one!
and im afraid they'll read it.
andd i think- okay la public la!
shit that means i have to continue writing stuff in my notebook?
oh and im taking trip humans + physics next year! yes i know i sound crazy.
someday, someones gonna read it. and im gonna die.
if someone told me last year they were gonna take trip humans + physics, i'd say they were crazy too.

in fact, if someone told me that even last week i'd say they were crazy.

OHWELL(: its a pretty rash choice, i know.

but hey; i want it! so yeah(: i like it whaat.
and i dont believe in ruining my future just to follow trends
its not true that theres no future in humans
and i DEFINITELY dont believe in screwing up my career choices just to avoid that person.
i can become a LAWYER hahaha.
youre crazy, m'dear. avoiding her to that extent.

sigh see la! public blogs are like so troublesome-.-
whitewords!

Sunday, August 06, 2006

HELLO(: im sorry for moving so so so much!:x hehh. but i like my new blog name! its suggested by ANNA:D three cheers for anna! and its so nice yay i think i shall stay here. for at least quite some time!

is the skin pretty! i make one okaaayyy(:

(if you dare to even SUGGEST its not nice im gonna pour honey milk tea down your shirt)

joking laah! im not that mean okay.

but really ah. dont you daree critiscise the blogskin! -glares. i only spent like a couple of hours on it, AND i was stressed out about ndp gathering and subject combinations and rs and that. so, yeah.

all lyrics are from stacie orrico's im not missing you! YAY I <3 THAT SONG:D yay stacie orrico! yeah okay bye!